sorry!

i am SO sorry i havent been on that much...a lot has happened.
on June 10th, school let out.
tomorrow (June 13th) is a bloc party at Fuel
the day after that i go to North Carolina with Ana, Emma, their mom, their mom's boyfriend, Kate, and Sarah for 5 days.
and i have finally decided that i will ask Jason out. tomorrow at the bloc party. Anthony said that he said that we're just friends, but i still have to try. See, even when i have a good reason not to do something laid out on the table, im still stubborn and i have to do the opposite.
and im not failing 6th grade! even tho i dont know what my grades are yet (and prolly wont any time soon...) i know im not failing. i can feel it in my gut. and plus, they told us what our grades were.
tomorrow i just want to sleep the day away until the bloc party. after the bloc party im spending the night with Ana and Emma and then we leave Saturday morning. i cannot WAIT to get to NC. it will be SO awesome. 5 days, just my friends and i, sand and sun. ahhhh.
im sort of scared to ask Jason out tho. i mean...what if i make things weird for us and he doesnt want to be friends with me anymore? we are pretty tight friends and i dont want to lose that. hes one of those friends that i want to carry out through life. hes one of those friends that i would cry over if i lost him. my friends are one of the reasons that i stay alive.
if you read my diary you would know how much my friends mean to me. to lose them would be losing everything that matters to me. i dont want to lose that when i have already lost so much in this hellhole of a world.
ive been so bored lately. ive just been sitting around the house cos i havent been able to go to friends houses at all yet. it sucks.
if you want to email me, heres my email:
loveshorses91@msn.com
my aim emial is one that i dont answer often, i just IM all the time from there.
to IM me,
hpfirepheonix7
k, bye.